[ o9.o3.o3 ]

Yesterday was first day of school.  Feels good to be back. I woke up at 3:00am though, I don't know why.  I couldn't go back to sleep.  Anyway, my bus stop sucks.  No ones here.  But in the morning the little 6th grade korean boys are so cute! They're all worried and shit.  They're all like "Where's the bus? Am I late.  I have to get to school!" in korean.  So cute!  Oh yeah, I have the gayest periods.

Gym Mr. A
Math Mrs. Eason
History Mrs. Weinstein
Science Mrs. Simonds
Yearbook Mr. Bidna
English Ms. Massoudi

Ugh, I barely have any classes with anyone.  Sucks like fuck. I missed school so much that it's gay now.  Korean school is this week.  Great, another year with the gayass teachers, but it's ok because all I'm going to do is talk to Alice.  Ok, I'm going to go now.  [ i have AOL but I'm going to get cable tomorrow ;D]  

[ o.9.o1.o3 ]

I'm at my cousins house.  I don't know why I'm here.  I have a big ass headache.  Ergh, I read a magazine in the car.  Anyway, I went shopping with Jane (Shin) on Friday.  Then she came over to my new house and slept over.  We didn't sleep until like 5:00 or somthing.  We talked a LOT about the past in school.  It's good to talk about the past because there were so many problems.  Well anyway, today my mom and I had a huge fight and I forgot why we fought.  Haha, I'm a loser.  Anyway, i gave my puppies a shower because they smelled like shit.  They're so cute! I don't want to sell them.  I want to keep them all ;D .  Well, it's good to be online.  I haven't been online since forever <library doesnt count>.  School starts tomorrow.  I missed school, hard to believe but yeah.  I miss Jane's gossips, Elisa's weirdness, Michelle's funnayness and, Miri's jokes, and Kimberly's obsession talks.  Oh my goodness, my cousin, Jane, is weird.  She just came and she has a ostrich egg.  She's going to try to hatch it.  Haha, pretty cool though.  I want to see it when it hatches and if it doesnt hatch, I'm going to laugh.  Ow, my cousin just hit me.  Anyway, I'm out now.  Lates.

[ 8 . 2 2 . o3 ]

Today was a damn bad day.  I could just collapse right now and start crying for eternity.  How come I never get it the way I want it to be? Who decided that I wanted a tutor and a psychiatrist? Who decided I wanted be so ugly and a fuckin bitch? Who decided that that i wanted to be born? Who decided anything?  I swear, I could just end my life right now and no one would notice that I'm gone.  The only thing good in my life was getting my dear dog.  How pathetic.  No, I'm not going to kill myself.  Only stupid fuckers kill themselves.  I feel so sick.  Fuck life.  Fuck everything.  I dont need my family right now.  I only need my self , and I feel like I lost my soul .  So pratcially, I have nothing.  Well besides this crap, I miss going to school.  I miss waking up early,  doing homework on the bus, getting in trouble for no reason in homeroom, and talking to my friends.  Shit, I still need to get Elisa, Miri, and my sister a birthday present.  I have no damn time to go out anymore.  Well, I'm out now. 

[ e d i t ]

ON TOP OF THAT, THE FUCKIN SHOWER GLASS DOOR SHATTERED ALL OVER AND CUT ME EVERYWHERE.  FUCKIN NON-STOP BLEEDING ON MY DAMN FUCKIN ARMS.  CAN IT GET ANY WORSE?!

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